For the past three weeks I have been working on three canvas paintings. working slowly but meticulously in order to learn a bit more on how to paint with realism. As time went on I lost a drive for the purpose of the pieces, as the canvases gained a coat of dust.
instead of struggling any longer to find a purpose..I dissected the common stresses of an artist.
time:
going to art school, deadlines can kill any piece of art. With these canvases being a personal undertaking this was not the case, I felt a time pressure from myself. Along with this I found that when I have the time to work on the pieces I was not wanting to continue with that particular concept...and that leads me to my next point.
weak content:
this is a tough one and is often caused by time. As an artist I find the ideas I want to undertake are inspired by everyday life. So when an artist is on a tight schedule there is not much room to explore...hence weak content. To be more specific this particular piece was actually inspired by an oddly passionate thought I had in a daze in the middle of the night. the next morning I ran with the idea but didn't commit to the initial reason for fascination and got caught up in logistics and what would help me to grow. But that is not what creating is for in most instances. To me, creating is to give a new perspective or a purpose from an artists point of view & to please or question viewers minds. Overall, This subject and my way of approach caused for the piece to become stale.
anxiety over quality:
I just stopped. & slowly gained anxiety because now I felt pressure to create something I wasn't passionate about during my short amount of free time. when an artist looses passion for a project an artist needs to reevaluate, and think of the project as a learning lesson.
With all of this in mind I took it in my own hands to transform these canvases into three ironic pieces that destroyed my anxiety, worry, and initial dream for these canvases. Below are the before and afters of the three canvases.
Before Deconstruction/Construction
